TORN BETWEEN TWO THORNS
How often are you torn between two thorny thoughts? Shall I, shan’t I? Will I, Won’t I? To be or not to be? The thorny question of decision making, the never ending quest of judgement which we must all perform from time to time, but which I try not to do, feeling that I have been there and need, because of the consequences, to move away from judgement, especially of fellow Humankind, with respect for all my siblings, since they are all as they are, through Free-will choice.
Is it not true that there, in judgement, lies the essence of racism and all the other isms? Which we all know and perhaps in our youth practiced through peer pressure, preferring not to admit and abhor now in the wisdom of age?
We all have to make decisions, it’s part of every day life: Do I need this?
Do I look fat in this? Which colour is right … and for the artist it never stops, recognising that nothing is ever finished. When we come to that state which we may consider a conclusion, in fact from that conclusion explodes further opportunities for thoughts to take us beyond the thorns to better, greater if only different, designs and desires. How often have we seen the many torn canvases?
Desires are the explorers, the pioneers leading us on to a new future, where only doubt can destroy our chosen adventure. Allow your desire to guide you to what you really want and do not be torn by doubt in any shape or form, either from others or more importantly from your own feelings of inadequacy.
The worst thing you can do is to worry about how your desire can possibly be accomplished. Worry is thinking about what you do not want!
How about conflicts of interest? Do you feel torn between the two like I do on occasion? When love enters the equation, for me it is almost feels as if I am acting like the soft buffer between the two opposing loved ones who cannot see beyond the thorns that keep them apart. Often of course it is the prodding thorns of others that make us take a course which we would rather not!
The problem in a particular close conflict that springs to mind, between a mother and daughter seems irresolvable and in my present position, loving both, but more on the sidelines than in the middle, I cannot deflect the thorns that fly between them, but try to commiserate and comfort when one or both are so torn as to be left in tears.
It is said that time is the great healer and possibly 9 out of 10 times that works to a degree, but time can also be a distorter and in my own experience from childhood where reasons were often clouded by misunderstanding without adequate explanation at the time. Over the intervening time period distorted reasons can become moreso!
Moreover, many a medic will recommend talking and counsellors will often invite the two torn apart to talk about their differences and innermost feelings about the other in a bid to get those unspoken feelings and beliefs out in the open, laid bare to mend the tear which often involves a shedding of the weight of responsibility washed away in tears.
Tears are a strange phenomenon whose main physical purpose is to irrigate the movement of eyes and their lids, but we can suffer from too little and also too many tears. We find them flowing when we are torn apart at the moment of a passing and at the other extreme as moments of joy, such as a new birth!
Emotion it seems is the lock keeper of the flood gates, our barometer of Well-being!
Emotion leads us to our feelings, so we should not be upset or embarrassed by our own tears, especially since our true feelings exposed and recognised will direct us straight to our beliefs.
This could be crunch time, because an understanding of true belief and its origin will direct us to its cause and if from the thorns of others may not be ours at all, and that moment of revelation is the ideal opportunity to get rid of the impressions and thorns of others that have torn us apart and replace them with our own thorn-less beliefs.
The thing is: Are you up for that? Are you willing to look that deeply into who you really are and change your thoughts, your ideas and beliefs to show to the world and more importantly to yourself who you really are?
With Love, Blessings and Faith in Mankind from Hanukah & the Angel